I'm currently working on a story about a guy locked in a chastity cage and the various guys he cruises in the gym locker room. The story is fiction, but in amongst the imaginary parts are elements of my past experiences (when it comes to the locker room hook-ups), and an imagined future self I'm aspiring to become - a future self that involves both being locked and getting fit.
I've been experimenting with chastity for a long time (long before it was cool, I swear). I bought my first cage in about 2015, and at the time of writing this I'm onto my fourth. I've always wanted chastity to be a bigger part of my life, but there have always been things that stopped me.
One of those things stopping me is my own embarrassment and awkwardness when it comes to talking about sex in the real world, outside of my writing. I'm lucky enough to have a partner who is open-minded and kink-positive, but I still find it hard to talk about some of the more unconventional sides of my sexual desire. Especially when they involve an element of intentional shame - and locking my dick away to wither in a flaccid state, unable to use it the way god intended, definitely has an element of intentional shame for me. So, while my boyfriend has fucked me in my cage a few times, and is totally supportive of my desire to be caged, I've never really thought of it as something he's 'into' and I still find it hard to make it a bigger part of our shared sex life.
The other impediment the fit and comfort: it's taken me a while to find a cage that fits me properly that I won't fall out of. Even now, the cage I've got fits pretty well but not well enough to wear for long periods of time without hurting my balls in a way that I'm sure can't be good for them in the long term. I think this is partly due to the way my balls are built: my scrotum is a little on the small and tight side, which means my balls don't hang low and there isn't much extra skin. Because of that my balls are jammed up against the ring of the cage, kind of squashed.
And I think this problem is exacerbated my my weight. I'm not exactly obese but over the last decade I've definitely transitioned from twink to bear, and I'm now not far off the 100kg mark. It means that where I would have had loose skin around my balls I now have more fat padding it out, giving me less to work with when I'm caging myself.
This is where my chastity and gym goals converge: because I need to lose weight to wear my cage more, and I'm hoping wearing my cage more might help motivate me to get more into shape.
Let me explain a little more about what I mean. I've always found it hard to motivate myself to go to the gym, and to stay at the gym once I get there. Following chastity content online I see countless guys who find that being locked is giving them the drive to work out, fuelled by sexual frustration. And sure, you can't trust most of what you read online and I know a lot of these guys are probably fudging the truth a fair bit. Like, they probably already have the drive to get ripped and the cage is just a way to get some extra online attention. But I want to see if being caged - the focus and frustrated energy of having a cage beneath my gym shorts - is something that can help me too.
At the same time I think that having this hot secret, this constant turn-on, might help make the gym less of a chore and more of a thrill. If I think of the gym as a chore I don't want to do then I'll never do it. But if the gym can be an experience that's sexually charged, and secretly kinky, then maybe that can help me enjoy it. If I can do that, maybe I'll be excited about working out, and then maybe I'll actually be enthusiastic about it. If I want that to happen though I have to change my mindset and actually choose to think about it that way.
If I can lose a bit of weight through this approach, it will hopefully help make wearing a cage a little more comfortable. A reinforcing spiral of feeling good about it and doing it more as a result. It's not just about fitting into the cage though: I've been trying to lose weight for years in an attempt to be healthier and hotter. (I know, I know, big guys can be sexy, and I shouldn't buy into all the body shaming fat-phobia that's so prevalent in the gay community. But what can I say, I just want to look hot, okay?) I also am under no illusion that I'm ever going to become a shredded gym bro or defy age to become a twink again, but I think that the combination of becoming a little slimmer round the gut and a little more muscular around the pecs and shoulders would help me feel sexier in the body type I now inhabit.
It means living a version of the fictional story I'm writing - albeit one with a lot less casual locker room sex because that's not something I'm seeking out these days. And even if it does absolutely nothing to help with my fitness or my chastity, it might at least help with my writing. Because to write the story well, to be able to describe the feelings and the sensory experience of being in a gym working out - and being locked while doing it - doing some in-character "research" surely couldn't hurt.
So while I'm writing this story about a locked sub working out at the gym, I'm going to try emulate it in my real life by working out locked. I'm going to use it as a way of doing research for my story, while at the same time using it to make the experience of workout a more sexually charged one for me, that I can get excited about and look forward to.
Stick around and see what happens. Could be nothing, because I might find it doesn't really help and I still don't really go to the gym, in which case I won't have much to say and this post might get quietly archived in a month or so. Or maybe I'll get somewhere, and in that case you might find reading about it kind of interesting, or hot, or even useful if you're contemplating something similar yourself.
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